feelings

This week felt like HELL and HEAVEN for me... I am feeling so down, inspired, irritated, happy, heartbroken, happyheart, confused, shattered, undecided, excited because:

> MONDAY - I had my monthly period
> I am enjoying the company of the other teachers in school
> crush texted me that his bicycle is already finish
> crush's friend (girl) added me on facebook and she has a lot of pictures with him
> TUESDAY - I lost my voice and until now I sound like gay
> My boss scares me sometimes! But I know she's just being professional
> WEDNESDAY - I am almost done with my July lesson plan
> THURSDAY - Our supposed to be field trip day but since it was raining so hard that morning, it was postponed
> Done with my July lesson plan and my activities for the 1st week is already prepared
> I got a bad news from home that my grandma passed away already!
> I had my crying moment with my locker
> I didn't enjoy my lunch because my eyes were so blurry and my nose is also flooding
> My pinay co-teacher tried to comfort me that time, she's so nice...
> I felt like going home, I wanted to see my grandma for the last time
> I cried again when I got home from work
> No one that I can talk to about my grandma's wake was online on facebook
> my mom asked me not to go home because I might not be able to go back in Singapore
> I am taking chances that If I can get my contract from the school I will be able to process my pass so I can go back legally in SG
>FRIDAY - I talked to the school head about my dilema and she gave me options
> Boss was asking for my e-ticket copy just to make sure that I will be back in SG
> Of course I will be back! I don't want to get black listed int the country and I still have to pay my mom and dad! haha!
> My brother texted me and he said that Phil (his dog) passed away already :((
> He was trying to have a deal with me already that I should buy him a new dog after 6 months
> I will miss that puppy... :((
> I'm thinking of giving something to my grandma... :)
> My dad called me that night and when he asked me if I wanted to go home for my grandma's burial, I said yes right away. And he's very fine with it.
> I booked a flight via Cebu Pacific (c/o my cousin) from Philippines to Singapore so I can show my 2-ticket to my boss.
> Boss called me and confirmed with me that I should go home on the weekend and be back before Monday.
> I had to re-book that flight again... ($$$ again...)
> I called Jetstar to have my return flight to Philippines be moved into the weekend. I didn't know that the call wasn't free and so while I was talking to the costumer service guy, the line was cut! toinks...
> SATURDAY - I checked my phone and I got no messages from either my agent or boss, I was so worried and so I checked my balance and poof! there's 0.00 balance in my account...
> on my other phone, I got messages from my mom and my tita...
> My heart was feeling very heavy and so I stood up and tried to fix myself
> I had a lot of things on my mind right now... Super mixed emotions... I don't like the feeling but it's teaching me some lessons in life.
> Talked to my mom and sister thru skype and told them about my plan
> My mom was teasing me that I should pay her asap! I told her that I won't pay her haha, because my dad wants me to buy him a new camera (sige mangutang muna tayo haha)
> I called up boss and told her that I have my e-ticket already and that I can show it to her on Monday.
> Hoping that she'll let me sign the contract on Monday so I can process the pass on the same day.
> Still trying to reach the Jetstar hotline to move my flight...
> Praying that I can come home to see my grandma for the last time...
> Will go to the Expo today to look for some electronic devices with cousins
> Thinking positive :)
> TOMORROW - hoping that everything's gonna be alright...

xoxo,
thecolorblind