the very last day... and I was there... as promised...

July 9, 2011

I was half asleep when somebody jumped on me on my bed... At first I thought it was one of my cousins who's sleeping next to me, but no! It was my two good friends from Manila!!! Surprise! But I was still feeling very sleepy and so after I said my hi and hello, bumagsak ulit ako sa kama ko.. bow! hahaha!

When I woke up, I saw them sleeping on our living room! Sorry lang, mahirap kalaban antok! haha! Super love nila ako kaya love na love ko din sila! They left Manila at 5am ata? Wow! Sa sobrang kagustuhan na makita ako (or somebody else that I know) ang bilis nila makarating! hehe...

Past 11am we all head back to Lola's place to prepare for her funeral. We walked going to the church at 12:30. I was laughing and joking around my friends and cousins as we walked to the church. When the mass was on, I was really trying to hold back my tears. The mass was about to end, and usually the priest will give some "killer lines" before leaving. Kaya ayun, he's not yet done talking pero my eyes were blurry already! Alam na! Then we had to sprinkle holy water to my Lola's coffin pa, ay sya lalo nang bumaha! Haha! My cousins were teasing me already that I cry like I'm the daughter, eh granddaughter naman.. hehe... Well, they can't blame me since I grew up seeing my Lola like everyday when I was in gradeschool and highschool and every weekend when I reach college and had my first job. I can say that I am attached to my Lola because we had a lot of moments together...

Walking to the cemetery, I stopped crying. But after talking to a cousin about some of my moments and last words of Lola, tears just automatically roll down my cheeks.

Seeing her for the very last time, lying down on her coffin was a very sad moment and also a little bit of happiness at the same time. Because I told her before (when she was still alive, and she's saying her goodbye to me that time) that I will be back for her and she should wait for my return. There we were, she's there physically, but spiritually absent... At least I still saw the face of the Lola that I know and she'll stay in my heart forever. ^_^


xoxo,
thecolorblind