now i'm speechless, over the edge...

I am really looking for some time to spend with my friends. But every time I text them, only few would send a reply. Going to their place was the best idea, but yesterday most of them are out of their homes or some were too lazy to take a bath or it's raining . SAD!!!

Good thing it was almost 6pm when I left our house with friend going to their place. I spend a little time talking to some of my friends and they were teasing me that they will make me cry on my farewell party. Oh please, don't!!! haha!

The same night I got the reply tweet from Phil Younghusband! hehe...

Me and two of my friends were sitting outside the store. I was really thinking of something else to do than to just sit there. I asked them to walk with me to 7/11 and there we bought slurpee! On our way back, we bumped into our other friend who's on his way to Chowking. He asked us to go with him and so we did. We just waited for his siomai and then we go on our separate ways.

We headed back to friend's place and then to the store to chill out. The two were playing tic-tac-toe and love scan on my iPod. I was just watching them while secretly waiting for crush. :D

Then I heard crush's motorcycle and he's ringing it's bell. HIHIHI... I thought he's not gonna come out anymore when I heard a bell ringing (no motorcycle sound) going on our way. Crush was riding on a bicycle and I thought that's the one that he's assembling. NOT! hahaha... The bike was owned by his brother's friend who's nowhere to be seen. The bike was so nice! I borrowed it from him and I pedal around the street. It was already 8pm. I asked if I can ride at the back but the wheel was kinda flat when we tried to ride together... CORNY! hehe.. Friend borrowed the bike and crush thought of bringing out his ukulele and drums (mini drum). Our other friend went home already so there's only 3 of us left. We sat on the pavement and started to practice singing. Friend was on the other side of crush trying to take pictures! haha! e sang a lot of songs...but we didn't finish every song. HAHA! Crush mentioned that I'm going to miss those kind of moments with them, sitting on the street doing whatever thing.... He even sang a song or a line for me about "leaving or goodbye"... Awww... If you only knew that I'm gonna miss you bigtime! :(

I remembered the night before, he mentioned (fb chat) that he's practicing Lovebug by The Jonas Brothers. I told him that I just downloaded the video and it's one of my favorite songs! :D So there, that night we were trying to play and sing it together. I even recorded our song into my phone... ^_^ How I wish you were my boyfriend! Did I mention before that he's also a good singer? Aside from being a good cook, he can also do carpentry and a lot of other stuffs! hanep! haha! Sorry, I am dreaming again....zzzzzz.... he's kinda hard to reach... i don't know if he already knew that I like him... i can't read his mind and movements... but every time i look at his eyes... i feel so lucky because we're friends and we're that close, but not super close... :) Before, I thought he's gonna feel awkward whenever our friends tease us like a "love team". Good thing he's a good sport. :) I love him more for that! :D


"hopeless, head over heels in the moment...." - a line from the song Love Bug by the Jonas Bros.

and it's JUNE 1 already! :D :( haha, huhu


xoxo,
thecolorblind

Phil is love

Yesterday I tweeted my picture together with our dog Phil and tagged Phil Younghusband.(AZKALS) While exchanging message thru BBM with my college friend, she mentioned out of the blue that Phil Younghusband tweeted me back!!! I was sitting along inside my Aunt's garage and tried to get connection on my iPod. Good thing my cousin left their wi-fi on! I clicked on Twitter and saw Phil Younghusband's reply! OMG! I screamed out loud by myself and my sister and her friends flew inside the gate and asked me what happened!!! I was giggling as I passed them going outside, to my friend's place!!! As I enter the door of my friend's house, I was screaming and giggling!!! Super pawis ako nun! haha! Then I told her what happened! I still can't stop myself from screaming and so I distracted the people trying to play mahjong outside their house. hahaha! So here's the tweet!

xoxo,
thecolorblind

fooling around at home

Our new TV arrived last Saturday morning!!! I tried to connect our external hard drive and my laptop and played some of my Korean music videos. The picture looks so good! I connected our speakers on the TV and the sound is so cool! So that night and the next morning I downloaded some more music videos from youtube. My brother has some movies on his hard drive and so we watched Transformers 2 (for the nth time) the next night.

After the Sagala, I asked my friend to come home with me so we can watch some K-Pop videos and movies. We were pausing the video whenever our crush shows up on the screen. We also took some pictures together with our crushes on the TV! ahahaha!


My brother's dog, Phil was very energetic that night too. He liked biting my sister's toe and so as my brother's hands! haha! Super cute! Phil looks like a stuffed toy inside a toy store.


After watching Flipped, me and friend stalked some friends on facebook. We were laughing and giggling the whole night! It's past 1am when we went to bed. :D


xoxo,
thecolorblind

Sagala 2011

It's the second to the last day of MAY! My friend asked me before if I can do her make-up for the Sagala on the 30th of May. So there, she went to our place on the day and I did here make-up and iron her hair. The eyeshadow looks more on a "party" mode than "sagala" mode. HAHAHA! Atleast she's happy with the result! :D

one Sunday with St. Rose

Four of my grade school friends went to my place last Sunday. They brought some snacks and then we baked banana cupcake! While waiting for our cake, we played 1-2-3 pass. This time the loser will be painted with lipstick on the face! haha!




They said that they'll miss me since there will be no more place to do our "tambay" mode! Ay ganon? Di naman aalis bahay amin! LOL! hehehe! I'll miss them too of course. They were even talking about saving money so they can visit me in Singapore. ;)



xoxo,
thecolorblind

look who's bading!

Yesterday, I woke up and went to the terrace to see our Phil. I played with him for a while and then grabbed some breakfast. I got a text message from a cousin and he's asking me and my brother to watch movie with him. He was doing his medical on the hospital where crush works and so cousin mentioned that he was being assisted by crush. He texted me again and teased me because I already saw the movie that he wanted to see..with crush! haha! Okay, for your information there is nothing romantic between me and crush. (sigh.. hehe...) We're just very close to each other. I told cousin that it's alright for me to see the movie twice since it's a very good movie. After an hour or two, I got a message from another cousin and she's asking me to play badminton with her and her sister. Now I am confused since I don't know which one to do: movie or badminton?

I actually planned for our group's night on that day since it is going to be my last week in the country. But sadly, only few of them replied on my message! :( Some are trying to do a part time job and the others maybe don't have enough prepaid to text back. I was making "drama" to cousin, crush and his brother to chill with me and my brother at home. Hay nako....

So since our "group's night" is still hanging, I just decided to go to the movies since there will be more company. Also because cousin wasn't replying on my message or she's wasn't able to receive any of my texts. Then she called me and said that they're waiting for my text reply. I was already on my Mall-ing clothes when she called so I told her that I'll go with other cousin to watch movie (since crush is also going wherever is more company...hehe). She just decided to go to the church instead of playing with her big sister. :P

Cousin, who went to our home, told me that his girlfriend is coming with us, and she's already in Waltermart. We asked her (girlfriend) what time will the movie starts then she replied that our movie is not yet showing in that mall! WTF! haha! Cousin suggested that we should just do some food trip at home instead of doing nothing. Since I'm already dressed, we went to their place to pick up her girlfriend. Crush saw us along the way and so he rode with us and then bought some food in the nearest grocery store.

On our way home, cousin told me that two of my college friends are in town to surprise me! Wow, he just spoil the surprise! haha! When I got inside the house, I noticed that the door of my room is closed! I don't really close that door unless nobody staying at home. So I can really feel that my two friends are inside my room! HAHAHA!

We made some pizza for everybody and we also had vegie chicharon! Crush and his brother also came. We played scrabble, in-between, and 1-2-3 pass! Super fun! Everybody would put powder on the face of the loser! BWAHAHA!



What a night!


xoxo,
thecolorblind

break a leg!

There were not so much people inside the badminton court last night. It was only me, cousin and her sister and another group of 3 girls who were playing yesterday. When everybody else left, the trainer played with us. Ay no! I mean he trained us! We did some drills which is somewhat tiring! haha! Whenever I'm stretching my legs, I kinda feel that my right leg is gonna break! :))

Anyway, I was feeling EMO last night! I just wanna fall out of love... haaay... major major history repeats itself.... and, i don't know what to do... will i just go with the flow again? i'm leaving soon and so maybe it will help me move on... though I will miss him everyday... :( - - - dramarama sa umga!

Yesterday we picked up my brother's dog in Calamba. He is sooo cute! His name is Phil, and he's a Siberian Husky. He just turned 2 months old last May 26 and he seems so big for a 2mos. old puppy! Here's a picture of me with our Phil...... ♥

This puppy is making my day. :)


xoxo,
thecolorblind

now i am feeling......

This is soooo HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF!!! Ayoko na ng ganito!!! :(

the dream is over

The original plan was that I will go with crush to Makati since I know the place and I am very free on that day. My "working-in-Singapore" news haven't arrived that time. So I just want to tag along with him on that day since he also mentioned that it'll be very fine for him to have someone touring him around the place. It was also my chance to spend a longer time with him. hihihi... :) Good thing he didn't bring along anybody else. HAHA! When I got the "working-in-Singapore" news, I grabbed it right away since it will give me a better opportunity than working in a school here in town. I also found out that I still need to request for a document from my college which I also have to submit in SG. So there, timing!

Yesterday me and crush went off to Makati. Nag-feefeeling ako na date yun! LOL! We were walking inside San Lorenzo Village and his stomach was on revolution! Bwahahaha! Good thing he asked me to bring him some medicine. First stop is in my college. I had to request for a "course description" (requirement for SG). I was hoping to talk to my former professor who is the head of our department, but she was so busy training some people (that was the girl inside the educ dept. told me). So I already made the request and the office told me to follow it up after 2-3 weeks! Wow, I won't be here anymore during that time. I will just ask someone to get it for me and mail it to me.

We walked again going to Greenbelt to meet my closest college friend. She has no idea or whatsoever that I'll be with someone! Haha! I told her on the phone that my guy friend who had a crush on her was with me! Joke joke joke! She was surprised to see me with crush! Haha! I told her that crush has an interview in the afternoon in Dusit Thani. The three of us ate lunch together in Landmark. Walked around Glorietta and visited some sports house. It was already 2:00pm ant it was time for crush to get ready. He put on his long-sleeve top, and damn he looked so professional! Weh!?!?!? hahaha! No, really, he looked amazing with that long-sleeve top! :D



We killed some time in Glorietta 5 and then walked to Dusit Thani for his interview. The people inside the hotel has no idea about that interview with some employer from Singapore! I was in a panic mode, though it didntt show, because I was thinking that "we went, i mean, he went here for nothing?!" Good thing my friend is very observant, and she spotted some group of people with a strange-looking-girl-giving-away-papers! We rushed to the girl and BINGO! She's the one who emailed crush, and she really speaks Singlish! HAHA!

Friend and I waited in the lobby. Of course we got hungry so we grabbed some cookies, sat on a table and exchanged stories. We got bored on our seats that's why we went to the other side of the lobby and sat down again, but this time we ordered some drinks which were kinda expensive! Crush joined us after he was interviewed, and our Dusit Iced Tea arrived too and so we ordered another glass for him. Well I didn't know that the tea inside the glass was a real tea and we still have to put the syrup that was on the two little glasses on the side. WAHAHA! Sorry, I'm from the mountains! :P The iced tea was good! I told my friend that we should do that again next time!



After our Dusit-Iced-Tea experience, we walked going to SM and to Glorietta. Friend already said her goodbye while were outside SM and so it was me and crush who went to the movie house together. We watched Kung Fu Panda 2 in 3D and we were laughing out loud inside the cinema! Damn Panda! hahaha! We were hungry after the movie so we grabbed some food and drinks on our way to the bus station. While walking in Greenbelt 5 going to Ayala ave, we passed by Swatch and he saw MATTHEW daw! Yung artista! Sabi ko, sino si Matthew, baka si MATTEO!!! Then he pointed to Matteo and OMG he is so cute! The Pinoy Zac Efron! :D What a night! We were really tired from walking the whole day and so we fell asleep on the bus going home to Batangas.

I really had a great time with him! He even paid most of our expenses during that day! Eh I told him the day before that if ever, the movie is on me... Now I am feeling guilty... I even asked him how much do I owe him while were on our bus ride, he said that it's alright since sinamahan ko sya and I can just treat him sometime in the future.... :)

But still, i'm feeling guilty...! Haha!


xoxo,
thecolorblind

feeling "high"

I woke up around 8:30am today. I turned on my laptop and grabbed some breakfast. I didn't know that my brother has no class today that's why I was surprised when he popped out of nowhere and opened the TV. He was watching NBA, Bulls vs Heat. He was screaming and cursing like a crazy monkey while I'm just sitting on the other couch with my lappy on.

It was already past 1pm when I got a message from cousin. She's asking if i'm home. I replied yes and asked her back if she already took a bath. HAHAHA! She said she's in waltermart (nagpapalamig) because there's no power in their place hahaha!

There's no power today on the neighbor town! haha! So I asked her to stopped by my place to hang out. I also texted friend and asked her to come too with her iron curler. Cousin arrived later than friend. We were fooling around with my little bunnies, Sunako and Mokona. Facebook stalking on friend's account since she has more than a thousand friends! We tried to look at the profile of crush's friend and there we were surprised that he is not gay!!! He joined the "Ginoong Tanauan" pageant last year (i think) and he has a girlfriend! I almost jump out of my seat because I can't believe what I am seeing that time! haha! I immediately grabbed my phone and told crush about my discovery! HAHAHA!

We practiced fixing friend's hair since the event is on Monday already. She first tried cousin's gown and it almost didn't fit her! BWAHAHA! It did fit her, but she said she can barely breathe. :P Cousin had friend's hair done, salon style, on our sink!



They tried to curl the hair, it didn't turn out very perfect but it looks alright though. I took out my nail polish box and we started painting our nails. The two of them went to the terrace to do their nails. They were laughing at each other the whole time. Cousin told me that the had enough acetone... (rugby/drugs style) They were pretending that they're sniffing acetone and it made them high! hahaha! Crush called me and asked if he can borrow my backpack. But of course yes! haha! Tomorrow we will be off to Manila, me and crush. I'm not sure if he will still bring his friend. Kahit wag na! hehe. Will go to my college for some paper request, then to crush's interview. Hope it won't rain/flood tomorrow! haha!

Back to fooling around with friend and cousin: We were teasing each other as I send them off our gate. (parang pinalayas eh haha!) It was almost 6pm when they started walking home. Brother cooked adobo for dinner! In fairness! ;) He and my sisterwon't stop teasing me about the things that I'm going to miss when I'm gone. Ay ganon!? I'm sure they will miss me more! HAHA! :P


xoxox,
thecolorblind

May 24

We were looking for my cousin's gown inside their closet with "cockroaches and rats" daw. HAHA! She's afraid to look inside that closet because a cockroach or a rat might jump on her if she pulled some clothes from that cabinet. We found her JS Prom gown which will be borrowed by our other friend who's gonna join the Flores de Mayo. Me and cousin will be our friend's hair and make-up artist. So where is friend during that time!? Cousin and I were already thinking of what hairstyle and what color of eyeshadow to use on friend.....

Yesterday was another badminton night! We had lomi first and then get dressed and then headed to the court. Cousin's sister said that she'll just follow us and so as our high school friend. So it was only me and my cousin who walked to the court. We were playing together when an older guy joined my cousin on the other half court. So it was 2 versus 1. Ay madaya! haha! Good thing the old guy's friend joined me afterwards. We were having fun while playing, my cousin was being teased to my partner because they were rallying in front of the net, just the two of them! BWAHAHAHA! After the game, our partners told us that they were Town Councilors! Wow... Heavy! haha! Then we realized that their other friend who's sitting and laughing at the bench was the Vice Mayor of our town! They were nice and they even gave us some advice in applying for work. hahaha! We were very tired after the game when my other cousin arrive. 5-10 minutes later our high school friend came along.

I was receiving a lot of text messages from some of my grade school friends, best friend, and crush while were resting on the bench. Crush said that he's somewhere near the area eating with his "good-looking-friend" daw. He asked me to see him on the second floor and so I asked cousin to go with me. We just said our hello's to each other and talked for less than 10 minutes and then head back to the game.

We were not able to play right away since there's a lot of people playing that night. So we were just talking to each other while waiting for a court to be vacated. Other cousin asked me if i'm excited on my trip / work in Singapore. I told her that I'm excited and kinda nervous at the same time. She even asked me if I'm going to cry, of course YES! I'm a big cry baby... :) ahaha

We played in doubles like 3 to 4 times! I gave up after our last round and waited for them to finish another round. It was raining very hard that night so we walked home with our umbrellas on, almost 10pm already.


xoxo,
thecolorblind

see you soon

I was exchanging tweets with my online friend from Singapore a while ago. When she first tweeted me, that was the time I was starting to be a big fan of BEAST / B2ST, the first korean boy group that I met in person! So that was last June 2010 when we first met online. We were exchanging stories about the BEAST boys, and then other k-pop stuffs. I also mentioned to her before that I really want to go back to Singapore. Then as time passed by, we read each others tweets and realized that we had a lot in common! She's also a Twilight and Vampire Diaries fan. We even became friends on facebook and saw that we're born on the same year and month! hahaha! Oh we're so meant to meet each other! We were even tweeting before about how exciting it will be if we're just on the same country. I told her that I might visit or work in Singapore, and maybe when that time comes we will be able to have a lot of bonding moments. And now it's on! I'm really coming there! :D I told her that I'll be coming this June and she was kinda excited! Yay! Me too! I am really looking forward in meeting her. :D

Last week I tweeted about our badminton night and she replied on my post and told me that she also plays that game and so as tennis. I was thinking to myself "wow, I already have a playmate there! yahoo! haha!" I can see that she and I will be very good friends. Hoping to know more about her. I will see her soon!


xoxo,
thecolorblind

dreaming mode

Okay, di ko na mapigilan sarili ko na i-share toh! haha! Remember when I mentioned that crush has an interview in Manila, to some employer from Singapore. So he mentioned that the interview will be in Dusit Thani in Makati. Eh sakop ng teritoryo namin yun nung college eh! So I asked him if he knows how to go to the place, and he said that it's near SM Ayala daw! Bwahaha! It's SM Makati, I corrected him. So in short he don't know where it is. So I told him that I could go with him since I know the place and I don't have anything to do on that day too. And of course why would he say no? :P He said that he won't be lost since I'll be with him. hihihi... I mean, Hahaha!

Remember on my past entry, last Thursday, I went to Makati with my mom to deliver this package, and we were about to pass by the hotel so while we're still far, I took a snapshot of the hotel using my phone. I sent it to crush thru MMS with this message:


Eto ditey yung pupuntahan natin! Ano room number? Haha. (Testing) ngaun lan ako magsesend. Txt me if u got this.

So he replied, "haha, pinicturan tlga, hehe". He also tried to send a picture from his phone thru MMS, I asked him to send me a pic of hie niece and guess what I got.... His older brother's picture on a perv pose! haha! WTF!

Anyway, so when I was in his place he reminded me about our "check-in" daw on Dusit Thani this coming Thursday! Bwahaha! Super natatawa ako pero I didn't really laugh out loud. I just laugh and smiled a little since his brother was there and they were whispering to each other about that "check-in" thing! Wow ha! Crush even showed me on his phone the picture and message that I sent him. He was referring to the "room number" that I typed! haha! I was trying to ask if he already knows which room the employer will interview him. Balugers! haha

Anyway, I asked him to go with me first to my college on Thurday before we "check-in" sa hotel. Bwahaha! I have something to request on our school's office... :) Hope it won't rain on that day. It's a date! :D (dreaming mode haha)



xoxo,
thecolorblind

it's on

Now it's official! I'm leaving on the 5th of June! Some of my college friends were asking me why so soon. I don't know either. I just grabbed this opportunity since I'm not very happy with my applications here in the schools in town. I texted one of my grade school friends about it and she replied "Naiiyak ako!!!". Aww, I know, I'll miss her big time too! I called her and she told me what will happen to them because we used to hang out here in my place whenever we see each other. And now that I'm leaving she's saying that there will be no more "tambayan" haha!

Moving on, my dad also wants this for me since he know that Singapore is a very good country. And also maybe because, this is what I want. When I was in college I'm really looking forward in working outside the country. Well, this is it! I'm starting to live that dream. Of course there will be sacrifices to be made like leaving your love ones, but with today's technology we can keep in touch with each other with the use of the internet and text messaging. I can't imagine what it's like when there's no internet or cellphone. I remember when I was young, my mom used to record my voice in a cassette tape and then send it thru snail mail so my dad can hear my voice since he's working abroad. I also used to write letters for my dad and other cousins abroad, and those letter takes a long time before it reaches them. Now, everything is instant. You will just open your computer, connect to the internet and tadaa you can see and talk to your love ones in real time.

Going back to the present situation, I'm not yet feeling nervous since I still have 2 weeks. I'll just tell (tally you) you about my today's happenings..... so today this is what i did:

- left my house at past 10am and went to cousin's place
- booked my flight on June 5
- copied some Korean series and movies from my cousin
- went home to eat lunch
- watched Step Up 3 with my brother and sister
- printed the ukulele chords / lyrics that crush sent me last night
- left the house and went to cousin + friendsss place
- walked with friend hoping that the lomi house is open (not)
- bought ice cramble for me and the cute kid (crush's niece)
- sat down on the pavement with my iPod on
- chilling out alone outside the gate till the sun went down (but deep inside, waiting for crush :P)
- became an information counter because crush's friend was looking for him (so i txted him that someone's looking for him)
- watched going bulilit with my little cousins
- texted crush about his print outs
- crush shouted outside the gate (my sister started to tease me while giggling) and then I went out and then we went to his place
- showed me the parts of the bike that he bought (fail! haha! some parts don't match on his bike)
- tried to sing/play THE LAZY SONG but the lyrics are missing so he asked me to write it down but i didn't finish it since they were teasing my handwriting (sori lang! haha!)
- fooled around with crush's nieces...
- went home even though it's raining... (it's a blessing! I thank the Lord for letting me have another day / moment with my cousins, friends, especially with crush)


P.S.
Mamimiss ko si CRUSH ng bonggang bongga! :( Mamimiss nya din kaya ako ng bongga? :( hehe

My cousin is in a very big dilema! And I think I am the root of it! howmaygash naman! haha! Sorry, sorry, sorry! I'll buy you a panda toy! hehe... :D

xoxo,
thecolorblind

the plan-not

I woke up this morning imagining how is it going to be waking up in Singapore alone. Ang loser lang ng feeling, hehe. Well, I am trying to practice to feel that "loser feeling". Kaya naman siguro. I'm just hoping that there will be free internet sa place na titirahan ko! I will really miss a lot of people here, especially my "childhood friends group" whom I'm always with every vacation. I will also miss my "grade school friends" who used just to pop outside our gate with their snacks and drinks.

What are the things that am I going to bring? I was thinking of bringing 1 or 2 of my stuffed toys. Maybe it's PigRabbit and Kirk (the cat)... I won't be bringing DJ (the white tiger from Singapore zoo) since I bought him there.

I can't make up my mind yet regarding the things to bring since I don't have my plane ticket yet! hahaha! I was even already planning for my farewell party! :))

Cousin was being pushed by her sister and mother to go with me already so she can job hunt in Singapore. Actually it was a my joke on her before that she should go with me! And now, it's her family who wants her to. I just wonder if she wants this or whatever. :P


xoxo,
thecolorblind

miss independent

I was chatting online with my cousin who's in the US. She's now working there as a manager in one of the Hollister branches in San Diego CA. She's living on her own now that's why I didn't hesitate to ask her some questions about how she is and how was living independently. (She's not really living alone since she's staying with her friend+family)

I grew up with this cousin of mine though she's 3 years older than me. We used to play together when we're younger. Now that we're already working, and she's now abroad, getting advice from her is one of the things that I really like. Though I miss talking to her in person. :( Good thing there's internet!

I told her about my application in Singapore and that I'm leaving the country soon. She was happy for me. She even asked me to just apply in the US so we could live together! Haha! If it's only easy to get in that country, why not? haha! I told her to give me a year or two and maybe we will be together! haha! I'm doing this step-by-step! I know this is going to be hard at first, this is life so I have to learn how to live for myself too.


xoxo,
thecolorblind

On My Mind - Cody Simpson

This is my song for crush! :)

On My Mind Lyrics

pa-hitch :p

It was my cousin's older sister's birthday so they decided to go to the salon and pamper themselves. I left my things inside their house and told them that I'll be waiting on the other house and then we can play badminton when they got back. Me and cousin were supposed to watch Music Bank together but since they took a longer time in the salon, I ended up playing ping-pong on crush's backyard and had a last minute view of the Music Bank in KBS World. When they got back, my brother went somewhere and he's supposed to play badminton with us. It was already past 6pm when we got on our rubber shoes. When I checked my phone, crush was looking for me and he's trying to call me. When I told him to get himself ready, he felt shy because there were no other boys that will go to the badminton court with us. So its just me, cousin and her sister (older cousin) who walked together to the court. While were walking, SK friend texted me and she was asking if we're going to play badminton because she's already there in the court. I told her that we're on our way already. She told me that a friend of hers was waiting for crush! So I called crush right away and told him that his other friend was waiting for him. He didn't hesitate and told me that he's gonna follow us. (Yehey! I thought he's not coming anymore! Good thing his friend remembered that they're gonna play today. He also mentioned earlier that he wants to play badminton and he's gonna bring a good-looking -guy with him! Hihihi... Okay na ko sayo, ikaw naman... Haha!)

So we met crush's friend and sk friend at the entrance. He's kinda cute ha, pati un size nya! Haha! But he looks kinda gay! Like WTF! Haha! Crush-friend joined me and my cousins in playing doubles. And then later on it was me+crush versus my cousins. The three of us, me, cousin and older cousin played singles (may rotation naman) while crush and his friend played together in the other court.

As usual, we all had fun even though we're already so tired. We were already walking outside when I decided to go straight home and let my cousins walk together by themselves. Good thing crush and his friend were at our back with their motorcycles. I told my cousin that if I asked crush to bring me home on his motorcycle and he said yes, I will go, but if not I'll just walk with them. Haha! So I was shouting crush's name and told him if its okay for him to bring me home... (Yehessss, lakas ng powers! Haha! Anu ba, nakailan sakay na din ako dun no! Hehe, but now may konting kilig effect...) while I was asking him that, his friend offered me to ride his motorcycle instead! (Haba ng hair! Feeler ako bakit ba! Haha!) But of course I declined! Shy ako, we just met, maybe next time! hihi... So I was riding at the back of his motorcycle while wondering "did he say yes because my cousins are there? Or if my cousins were not there will he still say yes!? Maybe! Haha! 50-50!" while he's driving, I was asking him if his friend was gay or not, and he told me that his friend shows a little sign of gayness but he think he's not gay. But crush-friend gave his number to crush! Haha! What was that about? :p When we arrived on my place, I said my thank you and pinched his cheeks while going down from his bike! Haha! Then he left... :)



xoxo,
thecolorblind

HOWMAYGASH!

I was in Manila this afternoon. My mom delivered a package to his brother's friend who's leaving the country tomorrow. I brought my badminton rackets to the sports house so they can change the grip and also I bought another shuttle cocks! HA! Can't wait to play again! ^_^

When I got home, I got a BBM message (BlackBerry Messenger) from a friend. We used to work together on the same school and now she's been teaching in Singapore for almost 6 months. She told me that I am qualified for the job and they're asking me how soon can I fly there in Singapore! HOWMAYGASH! I was jumping up and down and dancing like a crazy monkey. Then I sat down on the sofa and started to think about it.

Okay, the things that came into my mind was:
- homesickness (of course it's number 1)
- missing my family, friends, and pets (sunako and mokona)
- no more "tambay mode"
- i'll miss my borloloy group BIG TIME! :(
- less alcoholic nights
- celebrating birthday alone
- my dad is coming home this August and I won't be around
- no more unlimited text messaging + 15 minutes call (no more flooding of sms)
- i won't be able to see my brother's dog grow up
- i won't be able to bring most of my stuffs there
- how will I survive there (talking about food)
- paying for the placement fee
- i might get thinner ++ (which is good haha)
- i might spend all my salary in less than a month! >:D
- my sister might stole stuffs from my room
- i won't be able to bully my sister's boys! haha
- crush might have a girlfriend (which is obviously not me)
- i will be able to watch a lot of KOREAN POP concerts there
- i will be able to meet my online friend from Singapore and together we will go gaga over kpop boys
- i can buy my own plane ticket back home for a vacation! (yesss!)
- i might be able to buy a new Phone, or iPod, or a Nintendo Wii using my own money! yeah!


in short, I have to learn how to balance my time, money and emotions.


xoxo,
thecolorblind

mixed emotions

I texted my dad last time and told him about my job hunting in town. I told him that the salary here in the province is usually lower than in Manila. My mom said that it's alright since I will be staying at home so I don't have to worry about paying for the toiletries and my other needs. BUT! As the eldest in the family, I also feel guilty since I should be helping already in the house expenditures.

Bakit kasi mababa sweldo ng teachers! Lahat naman ng professionals dadaan muna samin bago maging pro a. --- ampalaya mode

My dad works abroad as a seaman. He's been in that job even before he got married to my mom. Now he wants to retire already even though he's not yet 60! Daya! haha! He's just waiting for my brother to finish college so he could just have a business here. (which is supposed to be planned ahead pa, not when you're already retiring")

So, si eldest daughter is nag papanic. There's a lot of job opportunities abroad like in Saudi, Malaysia, Indonesia, Australia and Singapore. I already had 2 interviews from a Singaporean recruiter. During my first interview, I think I failed because I said something that should not be said during an interview. FAIL! Then on the second one, I heard from another applicant that they want someone who has an accent in english. WTF! FAIL again.

A friend who is now teaching in Singapore messaged me a few days ago that their school recruiter will go to the Philippines to get more teachers. At first I was like, "nako, baka fail nanaman ako, wag nalang kaya? dito nalang muna ako siguro, pero ambaba kasi sweldo...". My dad texted me the other day and reminded me about my back-up plan before. I told him that he could just send me to Singapore and job hunt there. It hit me then (again)! He wants me to have a good paying job. I know that it's already my turn to help our family. I know that he really wants to stay here in the Philippines for good. Ang boring kaya sa barko... Anyway, I really have to do this even though it's hard. This is life and we have to sacrifice! :( Another thing that makes me want to push thru this application is CRUSH! I will follow you wherever you will go! LOL!

I am hoping that I will get it this time... and this time it's for real... I should ready myself...



xoxo,
thecolorblind

life as we know it...

I was home alone this morning and I've decided to watch LIFE AS WE KNOW IT to let the time pass. Today is another badminton day. I went to my cousin's house ad together we walked to the badminton court. I texted brother, crush and friend (high school servicemate) to play with us. Of course when they got there me and cousin were already perspiring to death. haha! So most of the time we're playing in doubles. Cousin is the scorer, me + friend versus brother + crush. Then me+crush versus cousin+friend.

We were all resting on the bench when crush and friend decided to play singles. They were talking while playing when a group of other players asked them if they could play together in doubles. It was a bit challenging for them since their opponents are good. After their match our two friends set me and my cousin to play with the challengers! Like WTF! Me and my cousin don't really play good together because we will just tease and laugh at each other even though our opponents are serious! Haha! We even made them (our opponents) laugh since we can't stop ourselves from making fun of each other. Cousin gave up and so crush became my partner. HA! We won during the first round and we barely notice that our score is moving! hehe. We even have this hand tap (sign of teamwork) whenever we have a good hit /play or nice shot! Or sometimes we use our rackets. hehe. Whenever he or me was hit by the shuttle cock, we would try to copy cousin's moves and lines which is so VICE GANDA! It was a very awkward move but still we manage to do that since we're having fun. So in short, lantaran na naman ang kalokohan! Wala na talaga akong poise! Haha!

One time, in the middle of our rest time, crush told me that he has an interview next week. There will be a recruiter from Singapore that will come over to the Philippines to interview and hire nurses. I can see from his eyes that this is what he is waiting for. I remember him staying in Singapore for a month because it was his brother's wedding and job hunting at the same time. I thought he would never go back here since his friends gave him a farewell party (which is where I wasn't invited because they were all nurses. LOL) I even asked him to job hunt for me, and he did! haha! When he told me (facebook chat) that he failed to get in the hospitals there, I felt his pain! :( I know what it feels like to be rejected from somewhere you wanted to be in. So now I don't know what I am feeling. I am happy for him to have this kind of opportunity, but sad because he might leave soon.

This is just so HISTORY REPEATS IT SELF second version! He is my second love. Now I said it. My first love migrated to Italy... He left without him knowing that I like him! Hmmp! And now, crush might leave, which is maybe for good if he got accepted. :( I told this to my cousin and she said that "at least you can go to Singapore". Well yeah, since it's cheaper to go there than in Italy. But still!!! :( I'm feeling down... haaay... this is life...

xoxo,
thecolorblind

so much for distraction

Yesterday we didn't play in the badminton court. Instead we played on the street. The dark rain clouds already conquered the sky but it didn't stop us from playing. hehe. My body, especially my back and legs still hurts from playing the other day. But I told myself that I have to do this so my body will get used to playing again. My cousin has a tummy ache that's why she wasn't able to come out of the house and friend was nowhere to be seen. So it's only me and crush who played badminton. After a while he got bored because I can't move freely from my sweaty slippers! bwahaha! So he decided to set up his table tennis in their backyard and played together with his brother and me. The two of them are feeling professionals! They don't even consider that I'm just a beginner. VERY INCONSIDERATE! They always make me pick up the ball. Like WTF! If I get better in this game, you'll see! :P

I just can't believe what I am seeing with my eyes. everytime I look at him, it's like he's getting cuter and cuter. SO MUCH for DISTRACTION!!! haha!!! I don't even remember why and how I had a crush on him when I was in my 4th year in high school. I don't remember him being so cute, but he's very funny even back then.



xoxo,
thecolorblind

I had a dream

I had a dream last night! I was riding on a motorcycle with crush! ♥ Yung suot namin parang nung naglaro lang ng badminton. hehe. So I was his passenger and then nag-break sya ng malakas at napa-hug naman ako sa kanya! hihihi... Of course ako lang yun kinilig, kahit sa panaginip tinawanan nya lang ako. haha. It's only me who loves him, and I think he looks at me or loves me as a friend or sometimes treats me as "one of the boys". OUCH.. One sided love, ika nga. Pero the good thing is that we are friends and I will treasure that forever. Get ready nalang for the heartbreaks that will come, soon! Noooo! :(

Parang history repeats itself lang. I had a huge crush on this other friend of mine since we're on grade school kasi. To the point na he became my first love. He's good-looking though I was taller than him when we're younger. (oo, issue yung height! haha!) He's gwapo that's why I had so many rivals! LOL! He's very nice to me and I don't remember having a fight with him whenever we're playing with our friends. He even knew that I like him, and so as the whole compound! haha! We were neighbors before and when we're in high school, they moved into the other barangay. I just heard one day that he had a lot of girlfriends already and he stopped going to school. Tsk tsk tsk. Good thing we're still good friends up to now. The bad thing is that he is in Italy now and he is such a playboy. Bow.

Moving on, I had another dream pa! It was my birthday daw and some of my friends from my college are there to celebrate with me. Of course my relatives (wala lang cousins, puro thunders haha), and my childhood friends are also present. PLUS! The YOUNGHUSBAND brothers are there too! And ang close close daw namin ni Phil! ♥ Super kilig ako sa panaginip! :D


GOOD MORNING! ♥


xoxo,
thecolorblind

Badminton Night

Played badminton with cousin, friend, brother and crush today at the new badminton court. It was super fun and super tiring night! haha! Wala ng score-an, di naman marunong magbilang! hahaha! Whenever me and cousin are teammates for doubles, we always end up laughing at each other! In short, we can't concentrate! haha! And whenever she's my opponent, 1-on-1, she would always do "Vice Ganda" moves which is a MAJOR DISTRACTION! haha! Our friend's other friend who's the SK Chairman of the barangay came to play with us. Though I didn't had the chance to play with her. She's so good! Yes, because she's a badminton player. haha! So most of the time it was friend, her friend, cousin and brother who's playing together in doubles and me and crush on the other court playing alone! hihihi... He's good that's why he enjoys making me run around on the court trying to catch the shuttle cock! WTF... But you know what I enjoyed the most? It was whenever me or him will serve the shuttle cock, we will look at each other's eyes and then try to distract each other by saying nonsense words or do my cousin's moves! hahaha!


xoxo,
thecolorblind

arm-spreading-moment

Went again to my friendsss / cousinsss place. No one was avaiAble to accompany me when I arrive there so I just sat down on the side while watching my sister and her friends play. I heard a noise coming from my friend's place and so I stood up and peek at their gate. I saw crush removing the old paint + rust from his bike. He asked me to go inside to see what he's doing and also to take a picture of him working. I left him after taking the picture and went to my other friend's place. Ay hindi pa sya naliligo! So I told her to just meet me on the street so we could check out the new badminton court nearby. I was watching the kids play around the street when I heard another kind of noise from my friend's home. As I approach their gate, I can smell paint. So when I took a peek from the gate, he asked me again to take his picture while spraying paint. He want's to see the evolution of his bicycle so he ask me to take pictures. OWKEI... After the final touches we played badminton together. Di na ko super kinikilig sa kanya since matagal na kaming friends. I was about to serve/hit the shuttlecock when he spread his arms (mang-haharang style) with his face smilling at me! Ay shet! Na-distract ako! haha! He's so cute talaga. If I could just stop the time so I could look at him smilling at me like that for a longer time . hehe. I really-really like him ever since we met! I was on my 4th year in high school when they move to the place where I grew up. I had a crush on him when I was in high school, but after I found out that he has a long time girlfriend, wawa naman me, nagcrack nanaman si heart! hmmp! Sad inside pero smilling pa rin outside. ^_^ So I decided to stop crushing on him after that. I actually met the girl and ay nako she's so pretty and sexy. SORRY LANG! :P Pero nagbreak na sila last year or last last year! haha! The ex-girlfriend has her own family na! nyok-nyok! Akin na si crush! :P

Anyway, back to the game! I didn't show naman that I was a bit distracted after that arm-spreading-moment. I'm not really showy naman din hehe. I wasn't able to move freely while we're playing badminton because I was wearing a tight shorts which is not stretch! WRONG TIMING! haha! The wind was blowing hard outside so we decided to stop badminton and play table tennis instead. I was already tired so I told him that I'll just follow him on their backyard afterwards. Good timing when my girl friend met me outside crush's gate and so together we went to see the new badminton court.

I was really tired when I got home. I had oatmeal for dinner. I need to DIEt na! Kailangan makalaro ng ayos sa badminton tomorrow with friends! FIGHTING! haha! ^_^


xoxo,
thecolorblind

Fallin' for you - Colbie Cailat

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I remembered someone when I heard this on my iPod... I searched for the video on youtube and posted it on my facebook wall. At inintriga ako ng mga pinsan ko, maraming salamat ha! hahaha!

^_^

my Friday the 13th

Yesterday was Friday the 13th and I didn't mind this unlucky day. My cousin went to my place in the afternoon and together we left to their street. We played volleyball with my sister and her friend, and then badminton with my brother. It was a very tiring afternoon and then we saw the ice cramble cart coming toward us. We brought some and sat down on the pavement with the friends. It's already dark when we went inside my aunt's house. I don't really like staying inside the house for a long time (except if we're eating or watching tv) so I decided to sit outside the pavement near the gate alone. I was browsing my cellphone when I heard a noise coming from a neighbor's gate. I was still busy checking my phone when someone started calling "Meeeesheeee!" Well, I know already who that is so even though I can't see him from the dark. I started laughing on my place and waited for him to come closer. As crush approaches me he didn't stop calling out Meeeesheeee! Meeeesheeee! Meeeesheeee!. (FYI we call each other Mee-shee, it's actually from a movie "Mee-shee: The water dinosaur." Hahaha!)

After a while my cousin, friend and brother also went outside to join us. We were talking about lots of nonsense things! haha! It was past 7pm already when a friend asked if we want to eat lugaw for dinner. They were talking about how to get to the lugawan when I started telling my cousin to just have lomi and leave the boys alone haha. Of course no one is paying attention to me and they started laughing at me! haha! WTF kayo! :P Brother asked friend (crush's bro) to call crush and have lugaw with them. But friend said that he's busy chatting with his girl. OUCH!!! :( In the end we ate lugaw with the 2 boys and walk back home.
We sat again on the pavement and waited for our other cousin to arrive from Manila. Me, cousin and friend were talking about college stuffs and work when crush and cousin2 came out of their homes, and brother+ our other friends arrive from playing dota. Picture-picture time!

In the end I wasn't feeling very happy even though I was laughing hard that night. So maybe this Friday the 13th thing had something on me... We went home past 10pm from our tambay mode... :P


xoxo,
thecolorblind

Lomi love!

I had my teaching demo in the school where I applied. It was fun being with a bunch of kiddos inside a classroom. The demo's good and the panelists didn't look disappointed. ^_^

Back at home, it was past 10am and I texted my friend to come over so we can practice curling her hair. I thought I failed her because when I removed the benders, her hair didn''t look that curly because it's still wet. I asked her to dry it on the fan and ho
la she liked it, not so curly though. ^_^



Together with my friend and sister, we walked to their place which is in the other town, just a few blocks away. My friend was amazed with her hair and so the people whom we passed by. All eyes are on her as we walk on the street. While talking on our walk, a jeepney from the other side of the street passed by very quickly and a boy inside it shouted and waved so hard to my friend! We stopped and try to have a quick view at the boy inside the moving jeepney. My friend told me that she doesn't know that boy! hahaha! FAN? hahaha! We were laughing out loud as we arrive on our destination! Super laughtrip yung lalaki sa jeep! hahahaha!

We had lomi and pancit (quarter to 5pm), me, friend1, friend2, and cousin. I texted crush to join us after his work. hihihi. I also texted my uncle's nephew (from the other side of the family who's GAY!) to join us since he lives near the lomi house.

Our order arrived! I wasn't expecting this kind of lomi with POPCORN (chicharon) on top! When the waitress gave me my order I asked my friend "ano toh, popcorn ba toh?". And of course, he laughed out loud together with friend1 and cousin! haha! sorry lang! Na-overwhelmed sa lomi! haha!


I'm almost done with my food when CRUSH came with two guy friends! *very good! haha! I didn't expect that ha! :P *kilig *kilig + pawis! haha! Then after a while gay arrived and he doesn't want to go inside the canteen so I told him to go inside and sit with us so I can introduce him to my friends. (bakit kaya?) He just waited for us to finish so we could walk together back to my cousin's place.

Tambay outside with cousin, friend and gay: (i hate this part)



I thought he will fit on our group of friends, but he showed me that he is not deserving! Hmmp! So here's the story after the lomi trip..... Friend was choosing a song on the iPod's playlist while cousin and I bought ice cramble. We asked gay if he wants some, but he declined our offer. (busog? diet?) After a while we just noticed that the three of us (girls) were dancing outside the street. I remember my uncle telling me that his gay nephew is a good dancer and so I asked him if he dances and if he can show us some moves. He moved a little but he said that he only dance if the others knows his song. (anong title yun? haha!) hmmmmmmm....

Gay felt hungry because he asked me if there's a bakery nearby. I brought him to my friend's bakery and then he whisphered at me "malinis ba dun?" ME: oo naman no! tingnan mo nga, buhay pa ko! haha! (WTF!) Back to my cousin's garage, there's smoke everywhere (which is normal when a neighbor is burning leaves/trash) and gay mentioned that he hates smoke and he doesn't like getting sweaty. He also told us that he don't buy food on the street. (LIKE WTF! GO HOME!) I was looking at my cousin and we both have the same conclusion! Gay said his his goodbyes and went back to the other street (same barangay). I was really pissed with his attitude and his kaartehan! hmmp! I won't invite him again... kahit may EVENTSSS! >:P

Good thing crush passed by on his motorcycle... ^_^ haha! It's almost 7pm when me, cousin, and friend went to 7/11. We loaf around the town park for a while and talked about that GAY shit... When we got back outside my cousin's place, I saw crush on the other side of the street with his phone on... (hmmm sino kausap mo ha! nawala lang ako sandali! joke! hehe) We sat down on the pavement with me feeling so pissed because of that gay! >:( I went inside my aunt's house to get the speaker + iPod so we have music while sitting outside. Then, crush walked toward us!!! He looked a bit down as he approach us. (bakit kaya?) He sat down with us and we talked a little and then listen to the music together: Friend-looking at her picture on my phone, Me-staring blankly, Crush-browsing his phone...

This day is one busy day! KUNWARI LANG! :))


xoxo,
thecolorblind

not-so-happy-ending

I went to my cousin's place to disturb her... hehe... Then we messaged our friend to come over so we can think of something to do. We decided to go to the market and have ice cream and tokneneng (quail eggs coated with flour which is usually deep fry) and also to drop something in my best friend's store. While walking we passed by the hospital where my crush is working. I was wondering that time if we will make it in time that he will be walking outside the hospital while we were walking back to my cousin's place from the market. So we went first to my best friend's store to give her the bag that I promised her. We had ice cream at McDonalds and brought home toknenengs!

While walking back to my cousin's place, of course we saw the hospital again and as we get closer to it I was telling myself "Is he gonna come out in any minute? Is he home already? Will he be walking or have his motorcycle with him?" praning? haha! So we were a little farther already when I saw our car from a far and shouted "MAMA!" hahaha! My mom stopped the car and the three of us hopped inside, me in the front seat.

The car was already inside the street where my cousin, friend and crush lives when I saw HIM on his motorcycle going on our way! aaaargh! So, I was looking at him and he was looking at me too! F*CK! hahaha! I smiled at him and he nod + smile back at me! My cousin and friend were teasing me while giggling at the back seat! haha! (i don't want to see my mom's reaction haha!)

We ate our toknenengs and then bought ice scramble. Crush went to the junkshop and then to his house back-and-forth! We played badminton together and he always give me a hard time catching the shuttle cock! hmmp! In my mind: "So you want me to get more sweat so I will lose weight huh? Why not just tell me that you want me to get thinner! hahaha!"

My cousin and friend also played while dancing at the same time! haha! The three of us did some k-pop sound tripping and played scrabble.

What a day! ^_^ I just had another moment with my crush... ^_^

P.S.
I read something on crush's facebook wall! okay, now I'm sad... :(


MORAL LESSON: "happiness are often paid by loneliness afterwards... " and "don't expect too much"

xoxo,
thecolorblind

HAVE vs WANT

"A man is looking up at the balloon when he realized that there's an ice cream melting on his hand.

He realized that it's time to appreciate the things that WE HAVE instead of staring at the things that WE WANT."

- a quotation from crush... good morning to me! ^_^

Pizza love!

It was Mothers Day last Sunday and one of our relative is celebrating her birthday on the same day. She invited us to go to their place in Sala, somewhere in Tanauan, and have lunch there. Instead of me treating my mama, I told her that we should just go to our cousin's birthday since they haven't seen each other for a while too. hehe...

I had a long chit-chat with my brother, cousins and new friends there when my brother suddenly asked me and my guy cousin to watch THOR. Actually we planned to watch that movie a week before, of course it was postponed during the last minute...! Anyway, we texted our other friends if they want to come, and so before 5pm we were there in Waltermart Tanauan.

Me,brother, crush, cousin and the girlfriend watched Thor together. ^_^

That Sunday was supposed to be my pizza-making day with crush and whoever friends. But since he came along to the movie, we moved our pizza-making day to Monday.

So Monday came, he asked me to help him make their dinner first before making pizza. I brought the ingredients and he was the one who mixed it to make our pizza dough! He tried to make it into a heart-shape crust but when I checked it, it's not balance because the other sides are thin or thick! haha! So, I just ruined his heart... Sorry! But I really want that heart-shape pizza...! :)

Since I cannot make that heart-shape crust again, I just made an oval pizza! (corny me) hehe... We poured the pizza sauce and put the toppings. At last, our pizza is ready to be cooked!

When we were about to slice our pizza, it turned out that the dough didn't rise well. We forgot that we must leave the dough for a while and let it rise for about 5-15minutes. (the mother commented after trying our product) Anyway, it was like a thin crust pizza, which is yummy, but a little hard to bite. HAHAHA!

In short, we planned to make another pizza sometime this week or next week...


I love this day! ^_^ shalalala!

xoxo,
thecolorblind

if you love me, if you hate me...

Hello bloggers world! So, I wasn't doing anything this morning and I thought of blogging. I opened my cousin's blog and then I started thinking of a blog name! hahaha!

It's so hard for me to think of a name / code name. Good thing Avril Lavigne's WHAT THE HELL was playing and I tried to type some lines from the song and hola, I came up with this "if you love me, if you hate me" blog name.

So, well this is my first entry! Good luck to my blog-life! haha!

P.S.
I still need to fix my account's layout and learn how to put pictures and other stuffs here.


xoxo,
thecolorblind