Marina-Marina-Marina haha

Yesterday was my first Saturday working in school. My boss gave me the keys of the school doors the day before. Every Saturday (if I have Saturday work) I have to open the school by myself and do some school stuffs in advance, or if the boss will ask you to do something...

So, yesterday I was there to fix my classroom. My boss also went to school that day because she has a visitor who wants to see the center. Yay! I wasn't alone on my first Saturday! haha! Her husband also came over to fix the lock of the front door. I was in my classroom doing some stuffs while my iPod is playing some party songs.

I left the school at 1:30pm and went straight to the train station. I went down to Bugis station and tried to hunt some hair accessories. FAIL! I wasn't able to find what I've been looking for. So I rode again the train going to Marina Bay station to meet my friend who helped me to have a job here in Singapore! Together we visited our friend (former co-teacher) who's visiting her brother here in Singapore. The brother lives in this very luxurious condominium around the area. I heard that the brother was leaving for the US that's why friend went on a visit. Good thing she emailed me last month that she will be visiting Singapore and so there, we were able to see each other.

Picture-picture at the veranda. I can see the Marina Bay Sands from their unit! On the other side of the place you will be able to see the Merlion and the Esplanade! Coolness! I wonder how much they pay for the rent... The place was so cool!
I remembered when I had my first job, she was with another teacher and I was assigned to assist them in their class full of naughty kids haha! She's very kind, and pretty! I never knew that she's already on her 30s and she has 3 children already haha. She even looks younger than me ha.
We had merienda at The Marina Bay Link, Toast Box is it! Thanks for the treat! ^_^


xoxo,
thecolorblind

si friend!

My cousins and friends were teasing me already because I haven't seen the last Harry Potter movie yet. I don't have anyone here who would want to watch a movie with me because it's too expensive. Well I can watch it alone, but I'm not ready yet since this is not Philippines, I don't know yet how the people behave here in Singapore haha!

Last week I got a message from my brother's friend, gay friend, who's working here in Singapore. My bro says that his friend is nice and we will easily get along. He added me long time ago on facebook and so I asked bro if I should accept his friend request. I haven't met him ever since but when I got a message that I'll be working on Singapore, I tried to gather my contacts who are in Singapore.. hehe... Before I went here, I messaged some of them that I will be working in Singapore and maybe we can meet up one time since I only have my cousin and his family as my relative here in SG.

Bro's friend asked me to watch Harry Potter with him! Actually he asked me even before if I want to watch Transformers 3, but during that time I was fixing some stuffs because I am going back to Philippines for my Lola's funeral. So there, when he asked me if I want to watch Harry Potter, he told me also that he will see first if his other friends were coming with him because they said they're not so sure yet. He'll just text me whatever his plans will be. I'm fine with it, at least he choose me to accompany him hahaha!

Sunday morning came and I was skype-ing with my family in the Philippines when he texted me. He said he'll be in town for his gym class and so he asked me if I still want to see Harry Potter. Of course, it's HP's last movie and so after I said that I'm free that day, he booked our tickets online and then meet up at the cinema after his gym class.

Hello there, now he's not just my brother's friend, because we now know each other personally haha. There's no awkward feeling and it also feels like I've known him for a long time already. When we got inside the movie house, we were talking about our plans in and after Singapore and whatever while the trailers were playing. He reminds me of an old friend who I think is also gay. hahaha!

After the movie, I asked him how much do I have to pay for the tickets since he was the one who booked it. He said it's alright it's his treat. WOW ha! Parang first date, sana lalaki ka nalang! hahaha! I said my thank you to him and told him that next time it's on me! hehe... i'm just a text away... haha! We went on our separate ways after that... He's so nice. I suddenly remembered what my brother said before, his gay friend is very kind and bubbly and he often treat them during break time. Wow! Haha! Sasama ako lagi sa kanya hahaha! LOL!

Yay! I found another new friend / buddy! ^_^ Hoping to play badminton and fool around with him soon!

The next morning, Monday, I opened my facebook account and read through the news feeds. I saw gay friend's zodiac sign because of this horoscope application. SCORPIO ka pala koya! When I opened his profile, I was shocked (only a little) and found out that his birthday was in the middle of my FIRST LOVE and SECOND LOVE! hawmaygash! haha! We will really get along... hahaha!


xoxo,
thecolorblind

soul searching daw, shopping pala haha

Last Saturday was our last day of First Aid training + exam. We were dismissed 2 hours earlier and so I was able to meet up with my college friend earlier than the set time. She's here for a 3 day vacation, and the main reason is that her Aunt asked her to pick up something at the hotel here. Good thing it was a weekend and so I had time to catch up with her.

We meet up at Forever 21 in Orchard Ion Mall and there she was, drooling over high heels and clothes! Haha! She's still the same "ganduh" that I know... Though she also mentioned that she's hear for "soul searching" haha! Pauso! Well, she's kinda broken hearted...

Moving on to the story, she's with her cousin who's working as a nurse here in Singapore. I also know her because we used to party together haha! Together with her cousin, we went around the shops and let friend shop till she dropped. Oh yeah, it's friend's birthday also this Wednesday that's why she's spending a lot! Haha! Yomon!

We rode the train going to Clarke Quay, and there we found some spots to take good pictures. Singapore Food Festival is on going when we went there. So there's a lot of booths selling different foods! We walked around the area and then when we got hungry, we just grabbed some food on the nearby booths instead of eating on the restaurants around.



We sat down on the pavement beside the river and had a little chitchat. Friend is super tired because they were walking since the morning. I missed talking to her! I was wondering when was the last time that we saw each other before this one... I don't remember anymore, haha, I think it was during one of our night outs which I barely remember. Hehe. I still want to spend time with them but she's going back to the Philippines already the next day... It's already past 10pm when we decided to go home.


xoxo,
thecolorblind

FIELDTRIP to Pasir Ris Park

Finally! Natuloy din. This trip was supposed to be last June pa, but because of the heavy rain they decided to postponed it.

So last Thursday, natuloy din ang field trip! On our way to the venue, seatmates kami ni chipmunk haha! My kids were with they're guardians so no hassle.



They all enjoyed playing on the different playgrounds at the park. Good thing there were lots of trees around so even though it's very sunny, may shade kami from the trees.

Here I got the chance to take pictures, haha!


xoxo,
thecolorblind

oh life...

Yesterday morning I opened my facebook and checked my first love's new tagged photos... Shocking! I saw a photo of him and his girlfriend who has a very big bump on her tummy! eh alam na! haha! I've been expecting this ever since I heard that he is such a playboy. Ayan na, at sa pangit pa napunta! :)) Now I know why the girl looks bigger / fatter on her pictures. (we're facebook friends eh haha)

I told my cousin about this and we were making fun of him! I remember before when we asked him what he'll feed his own family if he got his girl pregnant because he himself doesn't know how to make a living yet! Haha! He answered "well I still have my mom and our house so I'll go and eat at home and my girl still has her family too where she can feed herself". Bwahahaha! Winner answer!

Well, goodluck to him! He's only 20 and his girl is 16 or 17! Like WTF!

I'm not sure yet if I will be able to move on from him now... Haha! Si crush kasi e, second love ko yun kaso pareho sila talaga ni first love! :)) Oh life...

xoxo,
thecolorblind

back to work!

July 11, 2011

I arrived at Changi Airport in Singapore around 12:00am. I took the taxi going home to my cousin's place where I am staying. I fixed my things and then went to bed around past 1am. Woke up at 7am and prepared myself for work! Yay!

When I entered the school, most of the kids were shouting my name! They missed me, I was just out for a day plus the weekend haha. My babies welcomed me back with a hug! They're all sooo adorable!

Chipmunk was not around that day and so the next day, while our class is outside playing on the playground, chipmunk was making pa-cute to me. I was ignoring him, pa-hard-to-get mode ako eh haha! After a while he hugged me while I was not looking on his direction and then he said "I like you Teacher Reina!" He's sooo handsome and very charming! He also asked me that day if I like him too (it's like every other day, he asks me who I like or if I like him haha!) I told him, "yes I like you"! haha

here's my little prince charming :)

xoxo,
thecolorblind

going back to work...

July 10, 2011

Sunday na! I will be flying back to Singapore again... My whole family plus my balikbayan Tito and little cousin was there to send me off the airport. Since I still have to buy something, we stopped by Market Market and had our early dinner too. I asked my other cousin to see me in Market MArket since she lives near the area. We ate at Reyes Barbecue and had some DQ ice cream afterwards.

(oh diba, pumayat kami pareho! haha!)

at NAIA 3

xoxo,
thecolorblind

i need a little unwinding...

still, July 9, 2011

After the funeral, we went back to Lola's house... Me and my relatives were teasing each other about who's the "best actress" back at the funeral! haha! Of course the award goes to me! :)) Well, the most cry baby / IYAKIN among the family is none other but ME! hehe...

We were having a good time seating on the living room together with my cousins, friends and other relatives when I notice that it's already past 5pm! Waaa! I almost forgot about crush and my grade school friend! hehe... remember my postsss before this one, we were supposed to watch Transformers 3 the day before this one? So I want to make it up to him! I also invited my cousin and brother to watch with us hehe...

When we're on our way going to the bus station to drop off my two friends from Manila, we saw crush on the way! Saveeh! I told him that we're on our way to the Mall already! Bwahahha! Pero ihahatid muna namin yung 2 kong friends... By the way, my driver is my brother! At may assistant pa ako na kasama na naka high heels, si cousin! haha!

I asked brother to drop me at the mall so I can meet my friend. Cousin won't come with me! KJ ka talaga bading! haha! My cellphone was still on hang over and so I don't receive messages on time. I called up friend and she's not answering, naliligo pa yata. So I called crush who's on his way na daw! Shacksss! I was thinking that he might just leave if he sees that it was only me who's there waiting! haha!

Corny pa rin cellphone ko! No incoming messages... :( I was on the groundfloor of the mall waiting for friend, when somebody else shout out my name, I mean codename! Alam na kung sino! haha!

Panic mode na ako! I just told him that we sent my 2 friends to the bus station already and cousin is not a fan of Transformers and my brother is busy driving for my relatives (though he said he'll follow) and I'm still waiting for friend who I think is already finish taking a quick bath!!! Nagreready na ako na umatras xa when he said "tara na! magsisimula na movie!" haha! Imba talaga toh si crush, napaka unpredictable...! So we went upstairs to buy our tickets. I sent another message to friend and told her that I can just go out of the movie house to meet her when cousin called me because friend was already looking for me at the mall! Good thing we haven't gone inside the cinema yet when crush saw friend!!! Gaaash!!! I missed her!!! It's been a month haha! Ikli pa nga, haha! We just said our hi's and hello's to each other, she doesn't wanna watch the movie since she already watched it before. Ako na ang late manood ng matagal ko nang inaasam na movie! She decided to just go around the mall since she lives near naman, as in tatawid lang xa.

While inside the movie house, I found my cellphone beeping continuously! That time ko lang narecieve mga text messages from my friends and cousins na umaga pa nagtext... Wow ha! Then crush told me that I might not have turned off my roaming. May tama xa, kasi akala ko automatic yun e! Ako na ulit ang lost hehe.

After the movie, I saw friend with her cousin! So konting chitchat while waiting for crush who's in the toilet. When he saw us, he's saying goodbye already! Ay ganon iiwanan mo ko!?!? He thought that me and friend has something else to do pa. Eh friend's gonna watch Temptation Island with her cousin. I hugged her again before going off to the supermarket with crush who's going to buy beauty products! haha! Bading talaga yun, pang babae ginagamit! Pareho pa kami ng product brand haha!

He brought his scooter with him and so I asked him to drop me off my house. On our way down to the carpark, my old friend / enemy saw me from upstairs! Saveeeh! Of all the people, xa pa haha! He greeted me and so I greeted him back and then waived goodbye to each other.

We're in the middle of the hi-way when I got hungry, I asked crush to take me to the ihaw-ihaw area. Ayaw pa nung una, maarte! Dramahan ko nga na walang ganun sa Singapore hehe! Yay! At aba, he was about to leave me again ha, samahan mo naman ako! Iiwanan pa ko ng loko na yun dun oh! Talaga namen... Pero xempre panalo pa din ako! Grabe sarap talaga ng isaw, dugo, at binubong! hahahay! Tapos si crush pa kaharap ko sa lamesa! Solve na solve na! :)) Okay na sana yung gabi, pero ayaw na nya ako ihatid pauwi! Pinapag tricycle ba naman ako! Xempre makulit ako kaya hatid pa din nya ko hehe... On our way to my house he still can't decide if he's gonna drop me home lalo na ng maalala nya na dumating papa ko! bwahaha! He really pressed the break! Anu ba yan, feeling ko tuloy may ginagawa kaming ilegal! :)))) It was drizzling that night too, ako lang may hoodie, sorry hehe... I asked him, bakit naman magagalit mga yun, ano ba meron? haha! He laughed at my question when he answered "eh meeshu hahaha" so tumawa nalang din ako hehe. I told him that I might not be able to see him the next day since we will be in Manila after lunch. He asked me to jog with them the next morning eh kaso I need some more sleep so I told him that I'll try. He's not available din naman on lunch time since they have an outing. So when I was about to get off his ride, I hugged him from the back and said my thank you, goodbye and goodnight. ^_^ At kumaripas na xa ng takbo, bow. HAHAHA!

When I entered our house, my brother is making an issue! Ay nang-ha-hot issue! Parang tatay ko lang xa ah! hahaha! Di naman kasi date yun! Kung maka-taboy nga si crush eh! hehe... pero love ko talaga si crush! ang flirt flirt lang nya! eFF! hahaha!

So there, after I saw Lola for the very last time, I felt so moved... It's like all the worries are gone since I did what I promised to her. Bitin lang ang pag uwi ko, well it's not really a vacation naman. At least I had the chance to go home and see her... plus a little bonding time with friends and family. Thank you Lord! ^_^

It's like all my relatives there back in my Lola's wake were very happy and proud of me since I got the chance to work in Singapore at this age. They inspire me some more. Thank you very much! I won't let you all down! ^_^

xoxo,
thecolorblind

the very last day... and I was there... as promised...

July 9, 2011

I was half asleep when somebody jumped on me on my bed... At first I thought it was one of my cousins who's sleeping next to me, but no! It was my two good friends from Manila!!! Surprise! But I was still feeling very sleepy and so after I said my hi and hello, bumagsak ulit ako sa kama ko.. bow! hahaha!

When I woke up, I saw them sleeping on our living room! Sorry lang, mahirap kalaban antok! haha! Super love nila ako kaya love na love ko din sila! They left Manila at 5am ata? Wow! Sa sobrang kagustuhan na makita ako (or somebody else that I know) ang bilis nila makarating! hehe...

Past 11am we all head back to Lola's place to prepare for her funeral. We walked going to the church at 12:30. I was laughing and joking around my friends and cousins as we walked to the church. When the mass was on, I was really trying to hold back my tears. The mass was about to end, and usually the priest will give some "killer lines" before leaving. Kaya ayun, he's not yet done talking pero my eyes were blurry already! Alam na! Then we had to sprinkle holy water to my Lola's coffin pa, ay sya lalo nang bumaha! Haha! My cousins were teasing me already that I cry like I'm the daughter, eh granddaughter naman.. hehe... Well, they can't blame me since I grew up seeing my Lola like everyday when I was in gradeschool and highschool and every weekend when I reach college and had my first job. I can say that I am attached to my Lola because we had a lot of moments together...

Walking to the cemetery, I stopped crying. But after talking to a cousin about some of my moments and last words of Lola, tears just automatically roll down my cheeks.

Seeing her for the very last time, lying down on her coffin was a very sad moment and also a little bit of happiness at the same time. Because I told her before (when she was still alive, and she's saying her goodbye to me that time) that I will be back for her and she should wait for my return. There we were, she's there physically, but spiritually absent... At least I still saw the face of the Lola that I know and she'll stay in my heart forever. ^_^


xoxo,
thecolorblind

Friday, the last day, and I was there

Thank you Lord for letting me see my Lola for the last time! :')

The last day of my Lola's wake was also the 9th day after she died. There was a mass for her at home and I was really touched / affected by the priest's homily...

After the mass I went to the mall to buy some stuffs, open line my BB and had my hair done...

I was feeling very sleepy when I get home and so I fell asleep. I woke up around 5pm, changed my top and look at the mirror... Wow! I lost some pounds nga! We went back to Lola's house and entertained some relatives and family friends.

The same day, I asked my friends (including crush) to watch Transformers with me. May hangover yata cellphone ko, I don't recieve text messages on time. As in super delayed and pag may nagtext, sunod-sunod na dadating mga iba pa message. Akala ko tuloy dinitch na ako ni crush (xa lang yung nag yes na sasama sakin manood eh! saveeh! haha!) ako pala ang nang ditch, when I got his sunod-sunod na message, late na! Showing na yung movie nung time na yun so I called him to say my sorry... :P Super nanghinayang ako! Todoinks... Kaya sabi ko kinabukasan nalang, kasi my brother and my other friend was teasing me already! Loser kasi di ko pa napapanood! haha!

That time they were about to have a drinking session na pala! Eh I asked him to visit my Lola's wake since they're neighbors and it's already the last day. He said yes naman even the week before that he'll visit my Lola when I get home. Tagal nya dumating! mga less than 100 steps lang from their home yung bahay ni Lola... Malaman ko, he's drinking at home with his brother and friend! Saveeeh! Kaya pala malabo na kausap. He asked me to join them pero mas makulit ako kaya I asked them to come with me. I was getting my pasalubongs for my friends at the back of our car which is parked in front of crush's house and so I asked him to come out and see me! hehe... When I gave him my gift for him, he said his thank you and started to joke around again like, "asan ang kiss" or "xa kiss muna" haha! FLIRT ka talaga! haha!

Before I left, I asked him again to go to my Lola's wake na! He said they'll just finish the pitcher and will go there after... So ayun, naghihintay ako ng froglet habang nagbabaraha with cousins and friends while eating reese's, scrabble chocolate and yogurt candy...



My cousins and other friends were playing cards and scrabble when I left to get crush. Masunuring bata at sumama naman. His brother and friend just waited outside when we went inside to see my Lola. Ipapakilala ko na nga xa kay Lola e! Joke! Feeler mode ako bakit ba, haha! We joined the rest of the gang outside playing cards. Pero mga 20mins lang sila nag stay. May duty pa si nurse kinabukasan e. So ayun atleast pumunta xa. :D

I was also taking pictures the whole night. Rumoronda ako sa loob at labas ng bahay ni Lola. Lahat nalang ng sulok ng bahay na yun may naaalala ako. :')

I went home with my siblings and 4 of my cousins. The 4 ANAs. They were also there last weekend when I was still in Singapore. So ayun, natulog kami! haha!

That day was a very long day...

xoxo,
thecolorblind

I told you to wait for me to go home...

Last Thursday night, I left my cousin's place before 9pm and took a taxi going to the airport. I was there 3hours before my flight and so the ticketing counter is still closed. I sat down on the side near the entrance and the baggage weighing scale. I turned on my iPod's wifi hoping that there's a free signal, well may bayad... haha...

While waiting for the ticketing counter to open, I was listening and playing on my iPod. I always check the counter on my right side hoping that it's already open. But guess what I saw, a cutie guy waiting for the same counter to open and he's looking at my direction! Saveeeh!

Whenever I check the counter, this time, I also check if he's looking at my direction too! haha! Ya, I caught him stealing some glances on my direction noh! haha! F na F ba? haha! When the counter opened, I stood up and quickly fall in line. At eto, cutie is in front of me on the line! Saveeeh talaga! haha!

I wanted to ask him something pero wala ako maisip na tanong! haha! So inobserbahan ko lang si kuya habang nasa pila. I saw signs that he is gay! WTF!? haha!

After I got my boarding pass, I got lost for 3 minutes! Good thing there's a lot of signs around the airport and so I found the immigration counters. After the immigration, I went to the cosmetics section of their Duty Free to check if they have the orange lipstick that I've been wanting to buy! It is still out of stock... boohoo...

I walked going to the gate where the airplane is and it took about 5-10 minutes to get there. When I reached the gate, it is still closed and so I sat down on the chair on the side. After a minute or two, I saw cutie approaching!!! He's looking at me and he smiled! So I smiled back! He sat down beside me and exchanged some questions about the flight and our work. He's working in a hotel yata, or somewhere related to wine ek-ek, he's been working for almost 10mos. already and he's going back to the Philippines for a 10 day vacation. Machika si kuya, he even told me that his flight booking got doubled and so he has to move the other flight into another date haha! He sounds nice naman, may gay-magnet na din ako ano ba yan! haha!

He was using an iPhone that has free internet and so he asked for my facebook! HAHA! Kinikilig ako pero parang bading talaga si kuya e! The way he talks and he walks! Alam na! haha!

When the gate opened, we waited for each other after the hand carry checking ek-ek. I used the free internet service inside the area and accepted his facebook friend request. The picture says it all, he is gay, promise...! Sayang ka kuya!!!

Corny kasi we're not seated together so we just asked each other to just meet after the flight. So there, I wasn't able to sleep straight because a baby in front of me was crying the whole flight! Wow ha! I wasn't very excited about my flight going back home... Well you know, I'm going to do a lot of drama and crying scenes on my Lola's wake and funeral. A little excitement because it was my first time to fly alone and I'm gonna see my dad.. and crush! yay! haha!

Touch down Manila! After the immigration, I waited for cutie and together we waited for our luggage. We exit together and he said his goodbyes after he saw his relatives from the outside. I called my brother who's waiting with my uncle and other friend at the arrival section and off we go home to Batangas.

We didn't go straight home, instead I asked brother to drive me to Lola's house. It's almost 6am when we got there and all of my dad's siblings were still asleep. I peaked at the door and saw my Lola's coffin... I was already in tears when one of my Tita opened the door for me. It was a very good time to cry since nobody else is inside the house aside from my dad's siblings who were still sleeping haha!

After my moment with my Lola, I went home and hugged my dad! Yay! I was doing my "Mi Abuela" blog while crying! Super emo! I left the house again at 11am and went back to the wake for the mass. I was the only "old" apo who was there with the rest of the oldies (parents / Lola's children and siblings). I was holding back my tears as the priest do his homily, but as soon as they started singing "di kita malilimutan" tears rolled down my cheeks... and it was unstoppable! All of my Titos and Titas even the Lolas and the Priest were patting my back hoping that I will feel better soon.

Kapagod din umiyak! I got hungry and so I joined the rest of the oldies on the dining area. After that I went to the Mall to buy some stuffs, open line my BB and had my hair done! Yay!

(see next post...)


xoxo,
thecolorblind

mi abuela

Lolo and Lola got married on May 1, 1946. They had 12 beautiful children who all grew up well and became successful / professionals.

I never met my Lolo, he passed away already before I was born. I think he only met his very first grandson (my oldest cousin who is now 30+ years old) and the rest of us (grandchildren) were wondering what it's like if he was still alive. Our parents were telling us that our Lolo is somewhat strict. Haha!

Lolo and my papa

All of them had their own families except for one of my Aunt who was born special (She really is very special in the heart of each family member). Luckily I was a part of this family. I had a bunch of cousins and most of us grew up together. Even though we're not on the same age group we are all close to each other.

(1st batch of grandchildren)

I'm not sure if we had a photo where all of us cousins were present. Some of my cousins were living outside the country so usually it is the cousins who were in the Philippines who is always present in the picture taking. haha.

....the saddest part.... :(

Last June 30, my Lola passed away. It's so hard for me since I am out of the country. I am very close to her since I was one of his grandchildren who always visit her. Well, I live near her place and I also used to live in her house. Also, I never had a chance to have bonding moments with my other Lola (my mom's mother) because she passed away when I was little. So really, I gave all my Lola-Apo moment to my Lola Mameng.

I remember when I was in grade school I always go to her house after school together with my playmates. Even when I was in high school I still visit her from time to time. We love hanging out together outside, on the balcony. We always talk about so many things and sometimes we just sit there outside to let the time pass. There are times where she will tease me that I should be at home helping on the house chores. Then she realize that we had a house helper so it's alright. She also mention that it is nicer to hang out there on their street since most of my friends were living in the area. I grew up seeing her often so I am really attached to her.



When I went to college, I had to stay in Manila every weekdays. Good thing I don't have weekend classes so I was able to come home every Friday night and visit her on either Saturday or Sunday. That's how I love my Lola though we bully her sometimes haha. Me and my other cousins used to ask her to give us money to buy ice cream or whatever.



Whenever there's a gathering at home or outside, we love taking pictures with her and sometimes we give her some props to make her look funny. She will pose as we say and we know that she's having fun whenever we're around her (no pala, because she's also moody sometimes haha).

Her birthday celebration last April. I never knew that this is going to be your last birthday. I hope that you liked the cupcakes that I baked for you. ^_^ If only I can make 80+ cupcakes that time!

Good thing I was given the chance to fly home to the Philippines just for the weekend to see her. I did a lot of paper processing so I will be able to go back to work. Thank you Lord!

Lola, now that you're with our Lord I'm gonna miss you bigtime. I will treasure all the memories that I had with you. You will be in our hearts forever. I will never forget our last conversation before I took off for Singapore. You made my heart melt when you said that I might not be able to see you when I come back home. I was really in tears as she whispered those words on my ears. She promised me that she's gonna pray for me always. :')

my last photo with my Lola, the day before I took off to SG

I LOVE YOU LOLA MAMENG! :')

xoxo,
thecolorblind

♥ 사랑해요 윤두준!!! ♥

Happy Birthday YOON DOO JOON! It's been a year since the day you held my hand! *kilig*kilig! Sorry I wasn't able to see you last Saturday during your showcase somewhere here in Singapore... But I did saw you in my dreams lastnight!

SHOCK-ing dream

Setting: BEAST's showcase in Singapore
Characters: B2ST boys - Doo Joon, Yoseob, Kikwang, Junhyung, Dongwoon, Hyunseung, Me, Friend 1, Friend 2 (friend 1's sister)

The concert already started when the dream began. Me and friend1 were standing, i mean jumping like monkeys and giggling and shouting in front of the stage while BEAST performs SHOCK. There were only few people in the very front row during the concert and at the back was a bunch of other fans. In short, we are in the super VIP section! Wowowow!

After seeing my boys perform on stage, the scene suddenly change. I was trying to sneak inside the "meet-and-greet" room with friend1. Sneaking because we don't have a "meet and greet" pass. When I opened the door, I was expecting to see some girls (fans) on a line giggling. So when I peaked from the outside, I saw the BEAST boys hiding at the back of the group of fans! Their position looks like they were planning to surprise their fans inside. I saw Yoseob and Doo Joon first. Yoseob was lounging at the sofa while Doo Joon was sitting on the arm rest when they saw me!!! Of course, who wouldn't go inside that room if the first thing you would see is a group of very handsome boys! haha! So me and friend 1 entered the room and I didn't hesitate to take out my 2011 Planner for their autograph! I even hugged Yoseob while he's signing my planner and then I stole a kiss from him on his cheek. The next thing I know, he kissed me back on my cheeks too! AAaaarrgh! He gave me back my planner and passed it to Doo Joon! I also stole a kiss from his cheeks and then I saw Kikwang peaking from the other side! I rushed to him not realizing that Doo Joon might kiss me back too! Soyong! haha! I hugged Kikwang and felt his muscles! Shet! haha! I went back to Doo Joon to get my planner. I was scanning my pink and black 2011 planner trying to locate where they signed! Haha! I was browsing it in front of Kikwang who was waiting for me so he can sign my planner.

I don't know if Kikwang was able to sign my planner because the fans suddenly attacked the boys! They finally realized that the boys was there with me and friend 1 (nasaan ka nung nagpapasign ako? are you taking behind-the-scenes pic? haha!) So me and friend 1 hurried at the exit! haha! We were laughing as we run outside! Haha! Super fun and kilig experience! F na F!

We met friend 2 somewhere in the middle of the concert grounds! Then we took a taxi going somewhere, maybe home? haha!

Nasa Singapore tayo friend 1 and 2! It's a sign that you should visit me here soon! ^_^


xoxo,
thecolorblind

feelings

This week felt like HELL and HEAVEN for me... I am feeling so down, inspired, irritated, happy, heartbroken, happyheart, confused, shattered, undecided, excited because:

> MONDAY - I had my monthly period
> I am enjoying the company of the other teachers in school
> crush texted me that his bicycle is already finish
> crush's friend (girl) added me on facebook and she has a lot of pictures with him
> TUESDAY - I lost my voice and until now I sound like gay
> My boss scares me sometimes! But I know she's just being professional
> WEDNESDAY - I am almost done with my July lesson plan
> THURSDAY - Our supposed to be field trip day but since it was raining so hard that morning, it was postponed
> Done with my July lesson plan and my activities for the 1st week is already prepared
> I got a bad news from home that my grandma passed away already!
> I had my crying moment with my locker
> I didn't enjoy my lunch because my eyes were so blurry and my nose is also flooding
> My pinay co-teacher tried to comfort me that time, she's so nice...
> I felt like going home, I wanted to see my grandma for the last time
> I cried again when I got home from work
> No one that I can talk to about my grandma's wake was online on facebook
> my mom asked me not to go home because I might not be able to go back in Singapore
> I am taking chances that If I can get my contract from the school I will be able to process my pass so I can go back legally in SG
>FRIDAY - I talked to the school head about my dilema and she gave me options
> Boss was asking for my e-ticket copy just to make sure that I will be back in SG
> Of course I will be back! I don't want to get black listed int the country and I still have to pay my mom and dad! haha!
> My brother texted me and he said that Phil (his dog) passed away already :((
> He was trying to have a deal with me already that I should buy him a new dog after 6 months
> I will miss that puppy... :((
> I'm thinking of giving something to my grandma... :)
> My dad called me that night and when he asked me if I wanted to go home for my grandma's burial, I said yes right away. And he's very fine with it.
> I booked a flight via Cebu Pacific (c/o my cousin) from Philippines to Singapore so I can show my 2-ticket to my boss.
> Boss called me and confirmed with me that I should go home on the weekend and be back before Monday.
> I had to re-book that flight again... ($$$ again...)
> I called Jetstar to have my return flight to Philippines be moved into the weekend. I didn't know that the call wasn't free and so while I was talking to the costumer service guy, the line was cut! toinks...
> SATURDAY - I checked my phone and I got no messages from either my agent or boss, I was so worried and so I checked my balance and poof! there's 0.00 balance in my account...
> on my other phone, I got messages from my mom and my tita...
> My heart was feeling very heavy and so I stood up and tried to fix myself
> I had a lot of things on my mind right now... Super mixed emotions... I don't like the feeling but it's teaching me some lessons in life.
> Talked to my mom and sister thru skype and told them about my plan
> My mom was teasing me that I should pay her asap! I told her that I won't pay her haha, because my dad wants me to buy him a new camera (sige mangutang muna tayo haha)
> I called up boss and told her that I have my e-ticket already and that I can show it to her on Monday.
> Hoping that she'll let me sign the contract on Monday so I can process the pass on the same day.
> Still trying to reach the Jetstar hotline to move my flight...
> Praying that I can come home to see my grandma for the last time...
> Will go to the Expo today to look for some electronic devices with cousins
> Thinking positive :)
> TOMORROW - hoping that everything's gonna be alright...

xoxo,
thecolorblind